FULL ME TO BE

for so long
I accused you
from my insecurity
so many times
I went back in time in my memories
to the moments
when you made me feel so bad
so unloved
unwanted
scared
and insecure

so long I held bitterness, hate
I blamed you from about everything bad
that came into my way
just because
you once had been unfair towards me

and sometimes
I even kept being unfair to you
and making our relationship even harder
but I didn't realize it from my bitterness
until now

but today
I think I'm ready
to turn another leaf,
make my way to another goal in my life,
and to let go
of the past

I know
it's not easy thing to do
to let go of everything
that you've held inside
for so long
but I think I now am ready
to start the way out of this,
start walking on the road to my happiness

I can decide myself
I can choose to be the secure one
I can decide of my own life
and now
start living it
as a full me.
not as the half
that I was before.
because of you.