sunset

someday, I will raise my head towards the sun,
look the sunset in all its glory,
see all the power it wears in its quietness;
the scene leaving me standing speechless,
with no words given to the power,
the beauty of the poverty.

someday, I will stop walking
on this road leading among the others,
find my steps in the sand and,
feel the ground under my feet;
hot sand under my bare toes,
the snow, the grass,
as I walk towards the road
that I'm searching for.

someday, I will close my eyes
and let the wind blow,
at my face, with its sooting breeze,
and for a while see the beauty that exists
around every corner -
if you just know how to seek.

someday, when I will no longer remember,
maybe someday I will understand
and I will see it all - as it is.

FULL ME TO BE

for so long
I accused you
from my insecurity
so many times
I went back in time in my memories
to the moments
when you made me feel so bad
so unloved
unwanted
scared
and insecure

so long I held bitterness, hate
I blamed you from about everything bad
that came into my way
just because
you once had been unfair towards me

and sometimes
I even kept being unfair to you
and making our relationship even harder
but I didn't realize it from my bitterness
until now

but today
I think I'm ready
to turn another leaf,
make my way to another goal in my life,
and to let go
of the past

I know
it's not easy thing to do
to let go of everything
that you've held inside
for so long
but I think I now am ready
to start the way out of this,
start walking on the road to my happiness

I can decide myself
I can choose to be the secure one
I can decide of my own life
and now
start living it
as a full me.
not as the half
that I was before.
because of you.