no yesterday

don't.
don't!
my heart shouts when I see you
with her, with me
doesn't matter what you do.

you act like there was no yesterday,
that we are alright -
and I play along.

like you never hurt me so,
like I never got hurt.

please stop it,
I can't breath! give me some space,
let me be..

broken.

can we really get through this?

I choke,

 I slip, 

  I fall..

are you brave enough to save me?
are we brave enough to struggle through?
are you brave enough to catch me when I fall

without cutting my heart off with another woman,
another hit,
another fall,
deeper,

 inside,

  of this hell.

numb

numb feeling around me,
like it wouldn't be real.

I feel nothing


confusion -
no confusion,
what is this

hurt? anger? disappointment?

fear.


and I go through the same moments
again, and again,
and I still don't see the whole picture.

who I thought you would be
has disappeared.
who you are now -
I don't know.

someone too good to be true.

a stranger, someone -
you no longer fit in,

you didn't respect me enough,
you hurt me enough,
to feel like this,
to feel like nothing.

what is your goal now?
you live like there was no yesterday,
like you never let me talk;
didn't care what I felt like.

you live without me, to me,
thinking you can fix this.
or is it already fixed inside your head?

but I'm not that fixable.
I feel broken.